instablog: testimony
Can we just talk about the goodness of the Lord for a split second, and celebrate the victories along the way? (PS.. this will be long!)
First, I knew that the Lord was telling me to move to Birmingham a little over a year ago. I moved very quickly and ended up staying with a couple from my church. I can be a little controlling, so I like to know the next steps, but the Lord kept pushing back with “Rest.” I was struggling with “being too old” to not be living by myself, and frustrated because every time I tried to move, something would happen. But He kept pushing back with rest. I finally got to a point where I told the Lord that if His will was for me to stay where I was, then I’d stay. That exact same week, my neighbor/friend (who didn’t know that I’d been praying about that) reached out to me about renting her BEAUTIFUL townhome. Even in the smallest of things, He’s faithful because at that point, I’d already started looking for furniture for a different apartment and decided not to buy, only to find out that the townhome was going to be left completely furnished, and that I was going to pay rent at a RIDICULOUSLY low price.
Second, this past week my power steering went out on my car. It ended up being a much more expensive job that I thought (which the cost is literally more than what the car is worth! 😭😂) For about a day and a half, I felt a little discouraged, & finally got to the point of asking, “God, it’s bigger than the car. What are you wanting to do in me?” Again, He started talking to me about rest and relinquishing control. Let me tell y’all! I am not the greatest at relinquishing control over anything! So, 2 Corinthians 12:9 became real real! He is so faithful because the moment I slowed down, He met me with joy. It wasn’t that He wasn’t there before, it was just that I was running so much that I was barely sitting still long enough to listen. But the moment I stopped, peace and joy literally met me in the midst of the storm, and he taught me to dance through the darkness! I knew who to reach out to concerning next steps with my car, and got that process going, but in the meantime that left me without a car. But, HE’S SO FAITHFUL. I never missed anything: not a day of work, not one small group, not a HC class, not even having to attend one/serve one at church on Sunday NIGHTS! Last night I was in class and a girl (who I wasn’t aware knew that my car was in the shop) asked me if my car was fixed. I told her no, and she told me, “Well! Would you like to drive one in the mean time? I have an extra one just sitting at my house, and I’d be honored if you’d drive it. You can have it as long as you need it. I don’t mind!” 😳😳😳💃🏾💃🏾💃🏾 Y’ALL! I was minding my business, extremely content in what the Lord was doing in my life, and He goes and does THAT?!! Like, breh! Done! 😵
So, from whichever part of the process you’re in, He’s good! Get your eyes off of the circumstance and look to Him because it’s always more that He’s doing. My encouragement to you would be, “Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, over the man who carries out evil devices!” (Psalm 37: 7)
& because we wait....
“I waited patiently for the Lord; he inclined to me and heard my cry. He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see and fear, and put their trust in the Lord. Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust, who does not turn to the proud, to those who go astray after a lie!” (Psalm 40: 1-4 ESV)
Idk if the California key ring is prophetic, but that would be legit! 😭😂